Wrong?

We all have bad days and we all feel like we aren't enough sometimes. I do too. Here's how I feel on a bad day; many of you might relate to it. If you're having a bad day though I hope everything is fine soon <3

Do you ever feel like you aren`t enough in the eyes of the world? Like you`re never considered? Like you`re never included. Your difference in making choices affects so much.

They call you an old soul; not in the most beautiful way sometimes. They find what you say irrelevant because you don't matter, do you? But what`s wrong with being the old soul or being different?

I think it`s beautiful to be unique; to think in ways others can`t. To love the smell of books. To relate nature to the core of my mind. To be connected to everyone I`m close to, by making time for them. Loving people unconditionally and genuinely being a human. To be passionate about my life and have the determination to go through any path for it.

Why do people around me make it seem like I`m boring? I know I'm different. This is how I am. I care about people and I try to be empathetic, but empathy is inferred as being dramatic. Does it have to be that I feel “different”? They pretend to like me but they don't. Why is it so?

For me, making someone feel special makes me happy. Sometimes I know it's not my fault but yet I say sorry, because why deal with ego if a simple sorry will solve the problem? I don`t know if I'm wrong or if they are but all I know is everyone is different and has different choices.

You can see in their eyes how they silently judge you. People ask me why I care about them judging but why shouldn`t I? If I can turn to them for advice of course I`ll think about the criticism too. Am I really so worthless in their eyes? Am I really so wrong?

Xoxo

Advika